There are somethings in this life which don’t make sense to me, but you would think I could understand the basics of what makes us human.
Well I don’t, I cannot name emotions that I am feeling. Not their name nor how they internally feel. I have a pretty good vocabulary but I am guessing I have emotions which don’t yet have names.
I have been to my weekly group STEPS class this morning, and I have found that I simply don’t have the words to communicate how I feel. I have disassociated so much that they are no longer a part of my conscious psyche. I don’t know how this is supposed to make me feel, but it has certainly left me confused, and desperately trying to feel something anything.
I feel nothing, absolutely nothing. Yeah I know that I have no happiness in my life therefore I am sad or melancholy or even neutral; but I only know this through the absence of joy.
todays session has left me so confused and even more empty. What am I?
I am desperate to feel, but too scared at the same time so I am stuck in limbo.